我垂着头，站立着

I stand and listen, head bowed,

听我内心的指责。

to my inner complaint.

路过的人们在想，

Persons passing by think

我在找掉在地上的硬币。

I am searching for a lost coin.

“你被解雇了”，我的内心在大叫

You’re fired, I yell inside

这一次败得太惨。

after an especially bad episode.

我叫你赶快离开这里，

I’m letting you go without notice

不要发出声音，也别想拿补偿金。

or terminal pay. You just lost

你刚刚搞砸了最后一次将功补过的机会。

another chance to make good.

但是随后我看到自己站在出口处，

But then I watch myself standing at the exit,

穿上衣服准备离开，

depressed and about to leave,

我疲惫地招手让他回来

and wave myself back in wearily,

——还有谁能像我自己一样，

for who else could I get in my place

在黑暗窒息的环境下坚持工作？

to do the job in dark, airless conditions?