碎心的痛楚

crashing agony eclipse

迟钝着我强作镇定的感知，请求怜悯

my contrived perception, beg mercy

在他的手轻抚我头发的那一夜

the night his hand played at the back of my hair

一辆车在等待

a car was waiting

想念他本该是自然的事情

it should feel natural to miss him

但我们只共度了如此短暂的时光

but we’ve had such little time

阴影的呼吸

a shadow’s breath

茶壶的汽雾，纸上的

tea kettle mist, a dampness

水痕……

soon absorbed—gone …

陌生人在车里等待，他们没有注意到

strangers waited in the car, they didn’t notice

空气中的湿气

that damp to the air

他想要说什么

He meant to say something

在那正在靠近的，蓝色淤青的车灯里

in the bruised, blue coming car lights

我闪避着，在炽热的愤怒中

I quailed, ducked my head against

低头，在寒冷的冬夜

a blistering fury, took off my coat on a

脱下外衣，因为他的热

winter’s night, for his heat

然后目送他离去

and watched him move away

让我的心再次经历日食

to eclipse my heart again

感受他的离开

feeling him gone

想念

missing

他

him