running in place

就这样一直奔跑

my tongue has grown strong and hard

我的舌头变得粗壮强硬

my pace is steadier my step surer

我的步伐更加稳定坚实

measured as circles move around me and define

计数着围绕我的循环

this frayed self the center of at least one stubborn

它宣告至少有一个顽固的宇宙

cosmos

让疲惫不堪，破绽百出的我

处在它的中心

here i sweat the days

humming because rhythm makes persistence possible

在这里我流淌着岁月的汗水

occasionally breaking into song-and-dance

哼着曲子只为能够坚持前行

时时突然手舞足蹈放声歌唱

aware of the weight that impedes momentum

aware of wind factor and traction

重力让运动受阻

风力和打滑也搅动神经

(to wish i were dead? easy. the one wish that

always comes true)

（我想到去死？这是个容易实现的愿望——早晚的事情。）

as the hum of unseen fellow runners

看不见的跑友在哼唱

urges me on thru this brilliant fruitless flight

激励我继续这辉煌而又徒劳的战斗

point of departure is a certainty

起点早已划定

arrival a myth

终点神秘莫测

as i streak along the beginning turning back on

我拖着脚前行，仿佛每一步

itself again and again. my focus dead ahead

都回到起点。我的焦点焊死在正前方

peering. to see if

窥视着。我要看看

this is the dark that precedes dawn

这是黎明前的黑暗，

or the darkness before the dark

还是至暗时刻的先锋。