我并不是那么想念你

It is not so much that I miss you

更多的是一种记忆

as the remembering

我以为那就是想念的样子

which I suppose is a form of missing

只是比它更积极，

except more positive,

就像大停电的时刻

like the time of the blackout

虽然恐惧是我的第一反应

when fear was my first response

但随后我便爱上了黑暗。

followed by love of the dark.